temper

[mer]

well today i kinda flipped a little, i was with a freind at his freinds house, 1 of the people at the house got kinda thick and all smart with me, im so fucking sick of people jeering me and taking the piss out of me!!!
then something in me brain just exploded i went a little mad well not a little mad i tottaly lost me fucking temper!!

i cudnt stop myself , i smashed the tv, i put me fist through the wooden wall, i picked up a chair and smashed it off the floor, i picked up the other chair and threw it at your lad but it missed and smashed off the wall, so then i ran over to him, it took 3 people to stop me and thank god that they did stop me cause i dont what i wud of done to him!!

i had to go outside then to get some fresh air and clear me head!!

im not a voilent person i consider myself the quiet type i always keep to myself, i took a lot of shit in my life and it only took 1 person to spark it all off, i suppose it has been all building up in me over the years and just waiting to come out, it happened so fast, i felt so good smashing stuff at the time that i cudnt stop, but im thinking to myself now why and what the fuck just happened!

anyway i dont know why im writing this, i suppose i just have to get it off me chest as nobody here knows me and cant judge me!!

peace!

ps. it was only a shitty tv