Holy grail !

[Wildthang]

I like many have had good,average and some bad(two) encounters in my punting life . Like anything we do in life we are always trying to surpass that last "high" that punting gives us. For a while now most encounters have been pretty much the same....... Although very enjoyable nothing really mind-blowing .

I have always said that punting for me was clear and non emotional! I may have sounded arrogant or cocky to some when I said stuff like "fucky fucky time" or " put my mickey in" but it was always meant in a tongue in chek way.

I have no illusions in relation to this being a business and because of that I am somewhat sceptical/cold about how or what a lady does or says during an appointment . I don't mean that in s negative way towards the ladies nut more so as a self observation.

Now with that said I have truly enjoyed the time I spent in each ladies company for one reasson or another and that is purely down to the testament and truly amazing ladies that I consider myself privileged to have shared those special moments with.

As many may know I have been doing this for a while now and although over the years I have had truly mind blowing encounters,I now find myself standing elated , lost, confused and fulfilled ! But with a truly horrible horrible feeling of emptiness as I know I will never have that "holy grail" for myself.

After many years searching for that one true moment of both emotional and sexual happiness and just that feeling of pure elation ! The life is great moment! The perfect feeling,the eurica moment, Whatever you call it ?

Having found that and realising it will never be truly mine nor can it ever be surpassed I wonder is there a point in pursuing the "holy grail" when I have already found it!

It's strange to realise that after all the bullshit! all the cockiness ! All the money in the world! I will never truly have what I have realised is the only one true thing in this world that I want but know I will and can never have.

Did I fall in love? Maybe

Regardless I find myself now wondering? Is it better to have spent atleast a moment in time with that angel! And forever know I will live my life without her!

Or would it have been better to never have known she existed ? Avoiding tht sad feeling that mow grips me.

[Blonde Alexa]

Omg... That's all i have to say...

[saoirsemac]

a ffs not u!!!

getrup out of that....

love is for hallmark, a new escort will come along that exceeds it again
variety my darling big brother is the spice of life

go and stick ur mickey in as many women as possaible
as esp the way u live u cud be dead tomorrow

love me arse

love little sis xx

[ksteve]

Get a grip son.!

[sperminater]

Wildthang dare I say it without being patronising are you ok fella?

[harry10]

Coming to the point soon when I will stick rather than twist.

[Wildthang]

a ffs not u
love is for hallmark, a new escort will come along that exceeds it again
variety my darling big brother is the spice of life
go and stick ur mickey in as many women as possaible

love little sis xx

I hear you little sis and I hear the very same words in my own head and would normally be the 1st to say the very same!

But there comes a time when the realisation that no matter who you are or what you do or can do! There is always going to be that one moment in life where your world comes crashing down.

( bullet proof me arse) it shocks me to the core how easily I can have my ideals n believes challenged

[benin]

hope your ok wild... (call me a thick f**k so i know its really you) listen mate love can find you any time...you dont need to be looking for it...chillax you never know who or whats around the next corner.

[SophieX]

I like many have had good,average and some bad(two) encounters in my punting life . Like anything we do in life we are always trying to surpass that last "high" that punting gives us. For a while now most encounters have been pretty much the same....... Although very enjoyable nothing really mind-blowing .

I have always said that punting for me was clear and non emotional! I may have sounded arrogant or cocky to some when I said stuff like "fucky fucky time" or " put my mickey in" but it was always meant in a tongue in chek way.

I have no illusions in relation to this being a business and because of that I am somewhat sceptical/cold about how or what a lady does or says during an appointment . I don't mean that in s negative way towards the ladies nut more so as a self observation.

Now with that said I have truly enjoyed the time I spent in each ladies company for one reasson or another and that is purely down to the testament and truly amazing ladies that I consider myself privileged to have shared those special moments with.

As many may know I have been doing this for a while now and although over the years I have had truly mind blowing encounters,I now find myself standing elated , lost, confused and fulfilled ! But with a truly horrible horrible feeling of emptiness as I know I will never have that "holy grail" for myself.

After many years searching for that one true moment of both emotional and sexual happiness and just that feeling of pure elation ! The life is great moment! The perfect feeling,the eurica moment, Whatever you call it ?

Having found that and realising it will never be truly mine nor can it ever be surpassed I wonder is there a point in pursuing the "holy grail" when I have already found it!

It's strange to realise that after all the bullshit! all the cockiness ! All the money in the world! I will never truly have what I have realised is the only one true thing in this world that I want but know I will and can never have.

Did I fall in love? Maybe

Regardless I find myself now wondering? Is it better to have spent atleast a moment in time with that angel! And forever know I will live my life without her!

Or would it have been better to never have known she existed ? Avoiding tht sad feeling that mow grips me.

LOL did the rope not work or is it comedown talk

[monster_monster]

Thank you for posting such a heart warming thread about me, I know we only had the one gay encounter but it's for the best we leave it as is