I started back running in the new year to try loose some weight and mental health ..it's hell the first couple of weeks but hitting that sweet spot now where you actually want to go out for a run instead of putting it off ...hoping I can keep at it .there's a lot to be said for the calmness you feel after a run ..kind of like your mind Is too tired to think or care .I hope I can keep it going this year ...usually I slip by the wayside after couple of months and find it so hard to start back at it .January is always a depressing month but personally hasn't been too bad this time around and getting out in the cold air has helped . So many suicides always in January IV heard of 3 or 4 this month ...men and women ,young and old it's scary .Iv been that person suffering and not being able to sleep,panic attacks ,racing thoughts ,intrusive thoughts ,hallucinations practically ...crazy shit in middle of night and no one there to help.you literally would do anything to make it stop and that's why people end up doing what they do. thankfully I got through it so if anyone out there is struggling then as Michael Stipe says " hold on " .mainstream media and mental health "gurus " these days gloss over those debilitating dark nights of the soul symptoms instead opting for the easier " ah you felt a bit down but your ok now " ...there is so much more to depression and anxiety than feeling down and if the fucked up crazy shit was covered more then it might save a few lives .maybe I'm on a Segway here but if you know you know .