Have you changed???

[alexis]

I've lost my way in life a little lately.........

im sorry to hear this luther,this has happened to me on numerous occasions where i have felt lost! sometimes after something serious that happened in my life and sometimes for no reason at all, youll find a new direction or get back on track on the old one sometime soon darling xxx

[aml]

There's a line in a song that I often think of, it's the Luther Vandross song "Dance with my father again"..........

YouTube - Luther Van Dross-Dance With My Father Again

And it's the opening line "Back when I was a child, before life removed all the innocence" bit that always gets me going, or thinking...........

Having read Bustybronte's thread, very interesting BTW, I was just wondering do people think they've changed, either because of age of through their job or career???

I know I have, I guess it's hard not to, through life experiences, lost loves, lost friends etc., and I'm sad to say, through work and business. Now I have no problem with change, it's part of life, growing up and growing old, but I hate that I've changed because of my job, work, business or money, and I think I probably have...........

I could only begin to imagine how the lovely ladies here do what they do, with all the emotions etc. that go with it, and are still expected to smile and live a normal life beyond all that...........

I have to remind myself every day to be more tolerant of others, be more excepting, more understanding and to remember that everyone has their problems..........

I try to remember not be such a hard ass, try to remember what I use to be like, and try to be like I was before........

Have you changed???

Why???

Do you just accept it or do you try to be more like what you once were, accuming you think you were better then???

I suppose little things frustrate me much more these days than they used to do in the past.Maybe its to do with the recession and all that my patience is wearing thin at all the negative things than are going on during these uncertain times......

[luther]

I guess you are, like me, on the mature side darling (thats one of my fav songs too)
You sound like a really nice guy BTW and you sound like you have "mellowed" from what I can gather

Actually Bronte, I don't mean this in a bad way, but I'm probably not as old as I sound, perhaps just cynical.........:O

But I thank you for your reply............

[luther]

I think everyone changes for better and for worse in different areas ,the reason being is alot of these are on opposite ends of the same stick so its hard to be one without not being the other.

The biggest changes for me are from bereavement in that i lost all tolerance of bullshit. After seeing a close relative go through so much i really have no desire or inclination to be wondering about bullshit. This of course makes me less tolerant which isnt necessarily a bad thing at times but not exactly a good trait to have either.

A big change for me, is being less reliant on material things and more reliant on who i am deep within. Of course i have to have material things and i need money to live but as i go on in life i have a stronger desire to discover the me deep inside and also the desire to turn against the norm and listen ,really listen to the little voice inside of myself. I just find myself on this constant journey of looking for ways to go beyond limits. I cant even put it into words as such only on my own self spiritual path that encompasses all physical and emotional mastery.

Fuck thats deep shit,
Westside.

Westie, I know you think I don't like you for various reasons, this is not true. This in one of your very best posts......

Thanks............

[luther]

While I have changed I refuse to grow up, I hate people that feel the need to be stereotyped into an age role, if I want to suck a lollipop on a merry go round I'll do it, I never felt the need to comply with my age and I never will..

Me too.........

Perhaps this is one of my problems.............

[luther]

It happens to us all at some stage Luther. Don't let it get you down buddy.

Thanks Forrest.........I appreciate that..............

im sorry to hear this luther,this has happened to me on numerous occasions where i have felt lost! sometimes after something serious that happened in my life and sometimes for no reason at all, youll find a new direction or get back on track on the old one sometime soon darling xxx

Thanks Alexis, you are one of the very best................

[luther]

Thank you to everyone who took the time to reply to this thread and I'm sorry for those whos lives have been changed through bereavement. Although we may say this is part of life, it certainly doesn't make it any easier to deal with when it effects us so closely.........

Thanks again............

[luther]

As I said in my first post, I've changed, and I have no problem with that, it's the reason that I think I've changed that I don't like.........

I lost a good friend some time ago who's death I blamed myself for, for a long time, not directally, even the connection was idiotic, but that's just the way I felt, I couldn't help it. I knew it was stupid but I couldn't help the way I felt. I knew it wasn't my fault, and nothing I could have done, or anything anybody else could have done would have made any difference. I carried this guilt with me for a long time, as stupid as it was. I felt guilty for not being a better friend towards the end. He was an intensely private person and probably shut me, and a lot of other people out, it was just his way of dealing with things, but it filled me with guilt afterwards. That's just something I've had to deal with, and have dealt with. That's just life..........

But lately I've lost direction in life and not exactly sure where I'm going, what I want or what I'm looking for.........

I've had a very varied life and have done many things from scrubbing toilets right the way to being the top dog of a multi-million euro company, each carrying it's own problems but life has become a little blurred for me lately. There was a time where I knew what I wanted, or was looking for out of life, and probably had it, or at least was on the right path to it, but not any more..........

I've had a few very deep conversations with a good friend lately, all be it over a few drinks, opens the mind and loosens the lips I suppose, and surprisingly she tells me everybody who know me think I'm the most together etc. etc. person they know...........

I let somebody very special to me slip away a while ago cause I believed she was better off without me, she probably was , but I did this because I was afraid I couldn't be all that she deserved (not all that she wanted or ever asked for). She never ever ever said anything to ever make me think this, it was in my head, but I sadly believe that I couldn't be all that she deserved............

This I believe is a result of how I've changed, or have been changed because of business, finance etc. This is my sad fact of life...........

I fear I've sucummed to what I've always been afraid of, that I would change, because of this, and I never wanted too, and this has made me lose my way.........

I can only imagine what the ladies involved in this industry have to deal with, a thousand times worse that I have to deal with, but I guess this is Luther laid bare, or at least a little bit.........

I'm not sure if any of this makes sense, I'm tired and my head is a bit wrecked. I'm not sure what point I'm trying to make here, maybe none, maybe just telling a story..........

[anitasizzle]

No, I've not changed at all since my youth; I've always had a deem view of society in that I didn't believe half the shite society presented as 'normal'; for some reason i always know life in modern society was utter bull-shit, one big lie! that would end in disaster as we now know as fact. I remember walking back from protesting the first Gulf War, and telling myself 'T' don't have any kids or get into debt because one day you're going to have to protest on behalf of your country, and you don't want to have any obstacles preventing you from doing so. I knew then that 'freedom' was a commodity I would most need in the future, the ability to be a 'lean, mean fuck you machine' just like corporations who leave at a drop of a hat. Sometimes I can't believe my luck in that the World turned out just as I thought it would, and I was wise enough to be my own person and stick to my guns. I've known since the early 90'[s we'd have a depression, and so I never brought into the whole consumer thing; I always tell people ''be true to yourself,and always be nice to people, you never know it might be God

[DONEGALANGEL]

Well I most certainly have changed.. I`m more confident.. I definitely will never be in a relationship again where a man uses me as a doormat.. I say what I have to and often have an opinion now... I also have refused to be a follower... I am an individual and proud and also a lot tougher... But one thing I still have not changed on is I hate people who sit and tell bare faced lies to me...x