Let me explain what made me the way i am. Im serious about heading off for Summer. Since this is an escort forum ,this shouldnt shock much.
When i was a kid as in very, very young i had one hell of a future ahead of me. I was doing things that other young guys simply didnt do. I was swimming in deep water when i was 4, ran like a rocket when i was 6 or so. Yep things looked bright. All i had to do was pick something and i shoot for it.
Then like alot of other kids ,my mother developed terminal lung cancer. My old man told me that she was going to die when i was 8 (probably because i could handle it). Anyway i was a rock to her right up until the day she died.
I handled things ok when she died and turned around to carry on with life. This motivated me more than ever and i decided what i wanted to do with my life. I was always outgoing and always spoke to anyone i know.
There was this guy that i was speaking to regularly. One day when i was 11 , he asked me to come into his house because he wanted to show me a book. Anyway before i knew it the cunt had his dick out and grabbed me and one thing led to another. I was raped.
When he was done, i went home and wanted to kill myself. I felt guilty and like shit. I went from the most outgoing kid around to somone without an ounce of self confidence. I failed at every single thing i touched. I had fuck all friends, forget about girl friends. I was always the guy that got picked on and bullied by others. Always told that i was no good , always the one who was scared to reach out and try something. I was scared, had no self esteem, felt useless and never went anywhere.
This went on for years until about the age of eighteen. One of the bullies ,beat the crap out of me. He was yopunger than me and of course i ran like fuck. When i got in home and cried my old man ,when he found out who had beat me up ,beat me up again for being a coward. I decided enough was enough and that i was going to kill myself. Thnkfully just before throwing awhole box of pain killers down my throat, something inside me said "hey your worth more than this".
Next day i saw that guy and kicked the living shit completly out of him. I kicked the shit out of his older brother later.
I started lifting weights, started swimming ,running, martial arts. Unfortunatly i hung around with the wrong guys. I looked for trouble and kicked the shit out of everything and anything that gave it to me. I gave the guy that raped the beating of his lfe, he ended up in hospital and of course he said nothing.
Anyway one day my old man said to me that i was going to kill someone the way i was going. This sort of caught me because i didnt really want to do that.
I learned to focus my anger. Guess what? All the guys that picked on me ,started saying hi and being polite, all the girls that thought i was a wimp wanted to date.
Turned everthing 100% around.

Whats the point in all of this you might ask? Well its like this. I actaully have an inferiority complex to give something my upmost and honest best. If someone doesnt like something i say or do then hard luck. Get over it. I change for no one, stoop for no one. This is what makes me able to talk about literally anything with anyone, its how i can be nice one sec or a cunt the next. The choice is the other persons. I am what i am. Like me or hate me, makes no difference to me. I may come accross as self opinionated and a shit head. Fine no worries i can live with that. Judge me if you meet me.

So a story for the summer for you. And anyone out there reading this that was or is in a similar position to me, i will say this. You are not worthless. Be yourself and run your own life. Fuck what people think. Dump negative crap out of your life. If your friends are negative dump them, if your gf is dump her, if your job is leave it. You can do anything who want or be anything you want in this life. All it takes is to reach down deep ,believe in yourself and have the daddy bags to face things and push forward. Go for things and fuck the naysayers because they know sweet jackshit about what you can or cannot do. FUCK EM

Fuck Paedophiles, Rapists and the Bastards that Protect them,
Westside.

PS say what you want because im off and oh yeah, ill be back, when it suits me of course.