Good question. Married 15 years; but both our sex drives have changed. I havn't just decided now; this has been on mind for years. To put u in the picture better (dont now if ur married and have kids etc) I have a wonderfull family life/home. What I desire is a selfish one, that would destroy my wife and kids if they knew. I risk everything dear to me for this selfish desire. This bothers me. I still adore my wife and the life we have. Our kids r happy etc. My problem is if I satisfy this desire can i live with the consequences/guilt and/or will it upset the "happy home " we all have. This might all sound prudish but the family life I have is fantastic and fulfills everything with one exception. I appreciate ur reply and I checked out ur rec.. she is stunning like so many more!!!!!!!!!!