Depression is a very very serious challenge to say the least . However the OP on this thread has a difficult history on the site. I know of Cancer scams , I sincerely hope that these posts are genuine which is a contradiction as I would not wish depression on anyone , however if its not a genuine issue then the OP needs to banned for life . If it is genuine and I have my doubts then better to seek advice where your symptoms are not confused with your challenging reputation on this site .
i have gone to war on behalf of some who have been v badly treated when talking about depression here many many times so I have a track record of empathy and offering support and help to those who post , cautious of this thread I be but if its genuine you will seek help beyond this forum where your previous posts will not affect judgement . I wish you well if with caution .
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