Please, be sensible and communicate if you don't wish to carry out a booking

[Roderik]

I really need to get this off my chest now.

Please, to all ladies this post may concern: be sensible, honest and transparent with clients if you do not wish to carry out the bookings. This isn't about lost time, fuel and unnecessary exposure - while it is awful, I am the last person to get angry over those. But, unexpectedly, today's occurrence has me rolled into a ball by my computer and nearly crying. This happened to me for the first time, I never thought this would have such an impact on my already low self-esteem. I, honestly, don't need any more reason to hate myself more than I already do.

Not every client is neurotypical.

I have asperger's and I am on the autism spectrum dealing with serious struggles around social and work life. I make sure to let, whomever I book with, know of that I have asperger's in order to ensure there won't be misunderstandings or drama and that the person fully comfortable meeting me - not exactly normal, shy, nervous and extremely sensitive person.

I had a very bad situation today and it really had an impact on my mood. I find it very difficult to let things like that to just go away and not overthink. I booked an appointment yesterday with a seemingly lovely girl, good reviews (20+) with only one negative and there was absolutely nothing to indicate what's going to happen. As she wasn't able to see me at a shorter notice I booked for today for 12, a first client in the morning. I don't pre-book like that because I have general difficulties sleeping but knowing an appointment comes up makes my rest even tougher. However I really liked her profile and physical characteristics. Was asked to confirm booking in the morning and so I did.

I got up, got a protein bar to make sure my breath doesn't smell of food, got cleaned up thoroughly and put on my favorite cologne. Confirmed the appointment by text at 10 and then called at 11 to confirm again and to ask for directions. I was told that it is going to happen and where to go. Awesome. It was a bit of a trek and good bit of fuel burned.

I got there on time, called ten minutes before the appointment to find out that she has a client who owed her money come now in about 10 to 15 minutes to just drop the money and go and if I can wait. It did sound a good bit dodgy but I decided to give her a benefit of the doubt and I told her that I am a bit freaked out but I'd still like to meet her. Initial 15 minute wait turned into 30 minutes after which time I'd get a text asking me if I am still waiting and would never receive a reply to my confirmation. Call wasn't answered so it was not a credit issue. I left after 50 minutes, felt like an idiot and even worse so as the time went on.

You have no idea how many thoughts were going through my mind and how frustrated I was over being ditched by an escort - I have enough struggles in life, especially with interaction with women and this was really, really shattering. I always go through lenghts to arrive presentable and make sure an escort is not uncomfortable around me. I am not super-experienced like so many posters here but then with 10+ bookings I never had a bad encounter so far until today. I can't stop blaming myself for doing something that resulted in today's mishap even though I clearly know that I've ensured to be at my best and it just couldn't have been my fault. I can't stop kicking myself over it.

Please, be sensible and take into account that some clients aren't exactly healthy human beings and can be really sensitive to such mishaps. Please communicate and be transparent and honest - be it you feel unsafe, don't like the way client talks (I do have a difficulty putting words together because of my condition), feel tired or just had a change of mind. It's really better this way for everyone than just having people wait around and just toying with them.

I am already feeling bad enough about myself for having to resort to such services to fulfil basic needs physiological and psychological needs for at least a few moments with a caring woman.