Dont wake the monster up, I love it
Have to say its a wierd one alright, Im not usually one to judge, each to to their own & all that, but I kinda agree with Miss Rammer. Its like buying a ferrari & staying in first gear. Theres so much more fun to be had.
Maybe your at an early stage, wait it out, your feelings could change/evolve over time. I know mine did.
If not, you'll have a hard time trying to satisfy your need, some are not as big as others, but ive never come across a small one.
Oh I do like a good pun intended