Knowing who your friends are

[Amy Alison]

Maybe that's just a case of me reaping what i had sown, as I admit, I am far from being a social butterfly type of person.

However, I can't stop thinking that in my time of troubles, most people are not anywhere to be seen around me. Very, very few exceptions.

So, before I start giving out here it's an oportunity of saying thank you to the few people that still stayed in touch, came and see how I am doing or sometimes even helped. Some of them may think it's not a big deal, but for me, going trough a tough time, working with an injured knee to be able to pay my bills but still going to college, even that lift offer to college or that big case of cat food helped a lot. Or booking in for a massage, also quite nice, since even some of my regulars avoided seeing me in that time, under the assumptions maybe I can't really do a proper massage with a bad knee

Don't get me wrong, I am not expecting anybody to treat me like I'm a charity case, but going to the total opposite directions and make it obvious I'm someone they avoid until (I assume) I'm all better does not show too much consideration at all. Even posting here, I feel mostly left alone and while this doesn't bother me, I am thinking what the heck have those people heard about me that they seem to take distance. My PMs lately, seem to be from people who either ask when I'm coming back to escorting, either have no clue I am not doing escorting at the moment. I had Part Time Student at some stage on my massage profile, I got so far 0 PMs from people I know and used to talk regularly asking me what kind of course I am doing.

I get it, I kept people at arm lenght and this is coming back to me. I can't even say that makes, me sad, in fact I enjoy having more time for myself. But still, the logic behind it's rather interesting and - excuse the long intro - brings me back to the point of this thread.

Have you ever felt that in times of need there are less people around you ? If so, what do you think it's the reason ? People avoiding seeing someone upset as they can't handle it ? Or do you think the reason is a lot more egotistic, like being afraid of being asked for a favour? Or maybe you are the exception to the rule and in times of trouble you got even more support from people you know ? I'd love to hear your experiences. Answers on a post card please :)

P.S.I'm a lot better at the moment, both financially and health wise. Can't wait to hear from my friens