Happy ending guilt

[shydub]

Hi,
I've never paid for any physical sexual service till yesterday when I got a massage with a happy ending.

I've been with my girlfriend for a long time, she is the only person I've ever been with but lately I've had fantasies of being with someone else, any other female, not a relationship, just a physical thing, so I snoop on this site and look at the ads and play out how it would go in my head but never did anything about it, then yesterday I had some time on my hands and felt like I needed a massage and if something else came with that so be it. I popped into somewhere that looked like that type of place.

I kind of thought it might be the situation where I would have to raise the issue of happy endings, something I'd never do but the masseuse asked me before I'd even undressed and I just awkwardly said yes.

My heart was beating like crazy for the first part of the massage, I was considering asking her to cancel the happy ending part, then when she started massaging my ass and scrotum from behind I just went with it, as soon as I came I felt like shit. I wanted to leave but my massage wasn't over and I stuck out the rest of it.

I love my girlfriend and now I feel like an absolute arse, in some ways it didn't feel like cheating because there was zero attraction there, I barely even looked at the masseuse, it was purely a physical sensation that made me orgasm... it barely felt sexual to be honest, but I still wish I never did it.

How do you guys deal with this feeling? Do you consider it cheating? Is it possible to still be a good guy and do this when you have a girlfriend? Sorry if this is a bit of mood killer but just looking for someone to make me feel better about myself as a person.

[xagerate]

The curiosity you had previously is now killed , and you have rock solid clarification about how you feel about your gf.
Keep quiet and go bring her somewhere she wants to go/go do something she wants to do.

Its not all bad if you lose the guilty conscience and think about it

[justfrank44]

Hi,
I've never paid for any physical sexual service till yesterday when I got a massage with a happy ending.

I've been with my girlfriend for a long time, she is the only person I've ever been with but lately I've had fantasies of being with someone else, any other female, not a relationship, just a physical thing, so I snoop on this site and look at the ads and play out how it would go in my head but never did anything about it, then yesterday I had some time on my hands and felt like I needed a massage and if something else came with that so be it. I popped into somewhere that looked like that type of place.

I kind of thought it might be the situation where I would have to raise the issue of happy endings, something I'd never do but the masseuse asked me before I'd even undressed and I just awkwardly said yes.

My heart was beating like crazy for the first part of the massage, I was considering asking her to cancel the happy ending part, then when she started massaging my ass and scrotum from behind I just went with it, as soon as I came I felt like shit. I wanted to leave but my massage wasn't over and I stuck out the rest of it.

I love my girlfriend and now I feel like an absolute arse, in some ways it didn't feel like cheating because there was zero attraction there, I barely even looked at the masseuse, it was purely a physical sensation that made me orgasm... it barely felt sexual to be honest, but I still wish I never did it.

How do you guys deal with this feeling? Do you consider it cheating? Is it possible to still be a good guy and do this when you have a girlfriend? Sorry if this is a bit of mood killer but just looking for someone to make me feel better about myself as a person.

Two possible things will happen, either you have purged yourself of the need for experimentation and that will be the end of it, or, you will start to get turned on at the thought of your visit, and will return for more, from there you will escalate to escorts, draining your bank balance, losing your girlfriend, and you will end up with an arse like slavetoyou's for your troubles.

[rubberlover]

Hi,
I've never paid for any physical sexual service till yesterday when I got a massage with a happy ending.

I've been with my girlfriend for a long time, she is the only person I've ever been with but lately I've had fantasies of being with someone else, any other female, not a relationship, just a physical thing, so I snoop on this site and look at the ads and play out how it would go in my head but never did anything about it, then yesterday I had some time on my hands and felt like I needed a massage and if something else came with that so be it. I popped into somewhere that looked like that type of place.

I kind of thought it might be the situation where I would have to raise the issue of happy endings, something I'd never do but the masseuse asked me before I'd even undressed and I just awkwardly said yes.

My heart was beating like crazy for the first part of the massage, I was considering asking her to cancel the happy ending part, then when she started massaging my ass and scrotum from behind I just went with it, as soon as I came I felt like shit. I wanted to leave but my massage wasn't over and I stuck out the rest of it.

I love my girlfriend and now I feel like an absolute arse, in some ways it didn't feel like cheating because there was zero attraction there, I barely even looked at the masseuse, it was purely a physical sensation that made me orgasm... it barely felt sexual to be honest, but I still wish I never did it.

How do you guys deal with this feeling? Do you consider it cheating? Is it possible to still be a good guy and do this when you have a girlfriend? Sorry if this is a bit of mood killer but just looking for someone to make me feel better about myself as a person.

I really think you need to be kind to yourself. You have tried something and it's not for you. You obviously have deep and real love for your GF, so enjoy that experience. A lot of guys here are in relationships that for whatever reason aren't good and they find this as an escape etc. This is the land of fantasy, and the girls who work in the industry are professional. Be thankful you have sorted this out in your head for yourself. Get on with you life and put this where it belongs as in the past.

[shydub]

I really think you need to be kind to yourself. You have tried something and it's not for you. You obviously have deep and real love for your GF, so enjoy that experience. A lot of guys here are in relationships that for whatever reason aren't good and they find this as an escape etc. This is the land of fantasy, and the girls who work in the industry are professional. Be thankful you have sorted this out in your head for yourself. Get on with you life and put this where it belongs as in the past.

cheers man, it's been two days now and I'm still feeling like a shit, less like a shit thanks to the what people have said here but not great, wish I was better equipped to deal with this mentally.

Also now I'm pissed off that I wasted my time and money getting a wank from a woman I didn't even find attractive, she knew what she was doing and did it very well but I wish I at least fancied her... I now know this was a once off and I wasted it, fuck. Maybe that's what makes it feel less like cheating though... I don't know.

[justfrank44]

cheers man, it's been two days now and I'm still feeling like a shit, less like a shit thanks to the what people have said here but not great, wish I was better equipped to deal with this mentally.

Also now I'm pissed off that I wasted my time and money getting a wank from a woman I didn't even find attractive, she knew what she was doing and did it very well but I wish I at least fancied her... I now know this was a once off and I wasted it, fuck. Maybe that's what makes it feel less like cheating though... I don't know.

If it has helped you decide that it is not for you, then it is hardly a waste , is it? If you had enjoyed it, then you would be going back for more. Be happy that you have made a decision, don't second guess yourself, and try not to have any regrets.

[funlover12]

cheers man, it's been two days now and I'm still feeling like a shit, less like a shit thanks to the what people have said here but not great, wish I was better equipped to deal with this mentally.

Also now I'm pissed off that I wasted my time and money getting a wank from a woman I didn't even find attractive, she knew what she was doing and did it very well but I wish I at least fancied her... I now know this was a once off and I wasted it, fuck. Maybe that's what makes it feel less like cheating though... I don't know.

sounds like you need to find a beauty and at least make the memory worthwhile...addicted

you fooked now

[Westsidex]

Hi,
I've never paid for any physical sexual service till yesterday when I got a massage with a happy ending.

I've been with my girlfriend for a long time, she is the only person I've ever been with but lately I've had fantasies of being with someone else, any other female, not a relationship, just a physical thing, so I snoop on this site and look at the ads and play out how it would go in my head but never did anything about it, then yesterday I had some time on my hands and felt like I needed a massage and if something else came with that so be it. I popped into somewhere that looked like that type of place.

I kind of thought it might be the situation where I would have to raise the issue of happy endings, something I'd never do but the masseuse asked me before I'd even undressed and I just awkwardly said yes.

My heart was beating like crazy for the first part of the massage, I was considering asking her to cancel the happy ending part, then when she started massaging my ass and scrotum from behind I just went with it, as soon as I came I felt like shit. I wanted to leave but my massage wasn't over and I stuck out the rest of it.

I love my girlfriend and now I feel like an absolute arse, in some ways it didn't feel like cheating because there was zero attraction there, I barely even looked at the masseuse, it was purely a physical sensation that made me orgasm... it barely felt sexual to be honest, but I still wish I never did it.

How do you guys deal with this feeling? Do you consider it cheating? Is it possible to still be a good guy and do this when you have a girlfriend? Sorry if this is a bit of mood killer but just looking for someone to make me feel better about myself as a person.

Anything a woman wouldnt allow you to do is cheating imo. Best of luck finding a woman that says its ok to go for a massage and a happy ending cause there arent many out there.

Westside.

[ford pefect]

Tell your girlfriend she will understand and be supporting I'm sure