Good for you Scan for you.
I've been having a tough time of late with what I'm told are mental health issues. Not depression, but a panic and anxiety disorder from PTSD.
Its gotten so bad recently I can't drive anymore. I can't even get on a bus without having a panic attack. I have to be chauffeured by friends or family now. I have to fill myself with Xanax just to do simple things like go get a haircut or shopping. I always have to have someone with me shopping and the only person I can get to go with me is my teenage niece and I always end up taking her fashion tips and end up buying skinny jeans and tees, and I end up looking like a pasty white 30 year old Justin Bieber.
But the worst thing about it is I am completely unable to socialize to meet people and worse still anytime I have tried to go meet an escort I've always just ended up having a bad panic attack and gone home. Fortunately it has never happened while with an escort as I've never gotten that far since I started having these problems. Although there was this one time, were I actually very nearly went through with it, and after taking a lot of Xanax, I made it all the way to the door to meet an escort only to be greeted by someone who was definitely not the person in the pictures I'd seen on her profile. Even if it was the same person in the pics I wouldn't of went through with it as my heart was pounding and was in full on panic attack mode.
Apologies to any escorts who's time I wasted by arranging a meeting and not showing up. I've wasted the time of 4 escorts since I've been having all these problems. But I once spent a couple of nights with one escort in Dublin years ago while they were still working and I know that they get a lot of time wasters so I'm sure it wouldn't of pissed them off too much (I hope anyway)
Funny thing about it is, even though I have a lot of stuff to be depressed about, I'm still happy. That is a bit of a silver lining.
TL;DR - Every time I try to get laid I suffer from a panic attack