alone

[madjack]

Hi all, just making a statement about life. Having gone through life the hard way, married at 18, grandfather at 40, alcoholic at 18 and have gone through a rough life through my own fault. Stopped drinking 23 years ago last April, got my life back together until i had to give up long distance truck driving about 10 years ago. Also had a couple of suicide attempts during my drinking career.My wife raised our two daughters on her own without my help and is minding her mother for 25 years, 15 of them she has to be fed ,washed as she cannot do anything for herself. My wife will get her just rewards if there is another world after we die even though i am non religous. I have been punting all my life even long before E.I. and i thought i had it all seen until last Sunday . My daughter was in the city shopping and had her daughter[14yrs] and her son [3yrs] with her when on the way home an argument started and it got so serious without giving too much details she had to get out of the car with her son and leave the 13 yr old in the car as she had lost the plot kicking and screaming and completely lost the plot due to pressure in school, bullying in school and arguing with her mother as both has tempers. When i got the call for help i was totally on my own and unsure what to do but no one else wife, other daughter, son's in law friends as i thought left me to handle the situation. Got it sorted with a struggle but was i fucked up that night that i broke down and cried for 1 1/2 hours. It taught me that aquaintainces are many but friends are few and in my case that day i have none. Sorry for going on but i had to get it off my mind. I don't post much but any ladies that know me as a punter will verify that i am genuine and love this site. Thanks for ye're patience and i love ye all.John x