Hi Frank,
I met an asian lady on the night of Sunday 21/08/2011 in Dublin, she told me that she has been here 2 weeks and ALL her clients have been Asian. She came from the same city too. I swear to god on my mothers name. I can identify the lady to the site managers and they can verify themselves, if necessary. No names mentioned in public.
If a coloured man walks in to a restaurant, almost full house, but was refused service and given the reason he's coloured, nothing else. Would he feel discriminated against? It was exactly how I felt Thursday and Friday. Ms. X informed me we cannot meet because I'm asian (not because she only takes Caucasian clients, 2 different things..). I interpreted the message from a discrimination perspective (I thought she would look forward to it because we share the same ethnicity) but not from a private personal perspective. I couldn't sleep till 2am and woke up 4 times that night because of it (something for some of you to cheer about..). Yesterday I lost my head and allowed my emotions to overcome my judgement.
Honestly ask yourself. Have you ever lost your cool and did/said something you shouldn't have? Then you apologized to the relevant people after realizing you were wrong? And were you forgiven? I've pretty sure you have, we all have. Fine if you think I'm malicious and disgusting, but I know I'm not, my friends and families knows I'm not. Either way it doesn't make a difference if you accept this apology or not. I'm truly sorry for what I've done, I did what I can to ask for your forgiveness and there's nothing more I can say. I do not wish to continue with this tug of war as no matter what I say, some people will always take the opposite meaning and exaggerate/dramatize. Some say a criminal will always be a criminal, I believe it's true but only to a certain extent.
All the best,
Regards,
HF07