Im out of here..........

[mellors]

There's a wise head no your shoulders and I'm getting some very sound and friendly pm's from the gang this is going to be hard to replace

Counselling is only a PM away !

[dr love]

Cheers doc Don't you worry I'll be keeping an eye on all you mad feckers to make sure your all upstanding members of society er em did I just say upstanding!!!!

I know on part of me does be upstanding from time to time .: lol

[sperminater]

I know on part of me does be upstanding from time to time .: lol

Ah the irish dry wit refreshing!!

[dr love]

Ah the irish dry wit refreshing!!

You'll miss that no doubt .: lol

[royaler]

Let me set the week out for you last Friday I go and see my wee favourite stayed over an hour fantastic time big grin on my face but you have to close that door. Now I'm married like most of us here so you can go out have the crac but go back to your boring life day in day out (no I do have fun in life but that sparkle snit there) so Saturday get up early drink in the evening go to bed late. Sunday same surfed the net bit of crac on the forum go to bed late. Monday get up go to work book an escort ( a very nice one) but not my favourite had a good time but realised my mind was elsewhere. Tuesday get up early go to work stay up late. Wednsday get up early work stay up late have a few drinks go outside watch the moon and say to myself what fuck am I doing with my life????? Thursday I'm not going to bore you with that. FRIDAY drive through the town see my bundle of joy twice in passing head wreaked that I can't have it she's leaving not to return for a while ( not in the rule book ) Give her a call talk for 35 min laugh joke talk now that's a nice feeling. But I can't meet up im just to busy
Go home start drinking early mates call over do you want to go out for pints yep out the door
Call my sweetheart to meet up no prob go and see to discover I ain't the man I thaugh I was I'm hooked in something that can never be that you can upset this person There emotional
also you can punt all you want but all good things come to an end it's been a rollacoster a rocket but I dont want to see anyone else anymore I've had some great times some fantastic ladies but none like my bundle of joy and it's come to an end I couldent even performe last night (first time for that never ever happened before) I'm just too sad!!! So I really have to go leave the life I'm not cut out for this I've had 2 hrs sleep wrote this 3 times but it keeps crashing but I'm going to go back to my fuckn boring life and bring with mr the memory of my beautiful sexy bundle if joy see you guys I might pop my head in and out of the boards from time to time

Wow Sperminator! First off, if you go you will be sadly missed on this forum! It is always great to read your contributions. However, I can totally see where you are coming from. I know that I'm lagging a good bit behind you regarding my time and contributions here but so much of what you've written above is mirrored in my life as I'm sure it is in the lives of many of the guys. I have left my wife recently after many years of marriage. Main reason it lasted so long was because I didn't have the guts to get out when I should have, prefering instead to 'paper over the cracks', act 'normal', for the sake of the kids, etc,etc. All the time sinking deeper and deeper into unhappiness. Ironically in the end my wife stood up to the mark and told me to go - and I went as meek as a lamb!! Now its such a limbo but E-I and the wonderful ladies I have met, particularly one beautiful lady have helped to brighten an otherwise dark time.
The description of your week is so familiar - work, home, sleep (if I can!), work, home, sleep all the time interspersed with thought of the beautiful escorts, and as I say one in particular. The problem? Not having a clue how to deal with and talk about my emotions! Its almost as if I automatically decide how somebody is going to react to my story and decide to say nothing or else say what I think the want to hear!
Look, I know I am rambling something fierce, but your post is so brilliantly honest that I just had to write something. The initial motivation to write was to try and say something to help you out or make you feel better but I just started talking about myself again.
I think its going to be very hard for you when your bundle of joy departs and its so obvious that its tearing your heart apart. I really feel for you there mate, because if you are like me, she probably provided you with a happiness that you yearned for all these years. I can understand your sadness too and its feckin desperate.
But hey listen, whether you leave the site altogether or 'dip in or out', I wish you all the very best and try to keep that strong chin up!

[royaler]

Jasus fella you have it hard sorry to hear about you problems it's a funny hobby were are in it can be very hard not to fall for one of these beautiful girls I visit a escort on a regular basis Jasus what a lady funny intelligent and a great listener I would say she is one of my best friends that's as far as I let it go but I wonder if we met in different circumstances what would be but that's life there are times it can be very unfair ah look that's enough mushy crap from me. Take a break maybe and see how you get on you might feel different in a few weeks I enjoy reading your posts and so do many I would say drop in from time to time what ever you decide good look in the future mate.

Great advice Fitzy, I know its directed at Sperminator but it sound like I should follow it as well!

[mellors]

Another great post as well Royaler. Thats the beauty of this forum, you can express yourselves on here and know there are like minded people nearby.

[royaler]

Ah feck it I talk too much but hay where do you draw the line my heads all over the place and I can't hit the thanks button I've done too many in the last 24hrs I'm putting it all up here I think I should talk else where before I burst. Yesterday was a long day a number of events happened and it all came crashing down late last night I fucken cried like a baby man I feel like an idiot!!!!!! But hay that's the trouble with life a crash hits you in the fase bang!!!! I really need to stop talking too much

Please don't stop talking Sperminator ..... hang in there! If you think you are an idiot for crying, you are joined by me and I would say a lot of the other guys here as well!!

[dr love]

Another great post as well Royaler. Thats the beauty of this forum, you can express yourselves on here and know there are like minded people nearby.

Agreed mellors .: doc

[royaler]

Well I've booked holiday sun sun sun beer!!!!

Good for you!