Very pertinent question Alec and there is no way your curiosity can offend me
I am not sure if anybody remember a posting I had at the beginning of this year, where I said this might be my last year as an escort. I have never seen escorting as a long time job for me anyway.
Hopefully I don't sound like a cliche when I'm saying that I used to love my job and meeting people and I gave everyone I met the most attention I was able to give at the time. However, around last October I started to notice that my extremmely good intentions are not always appreciated and the more I give, the more I am expected to give.
My drop in prices was a mistake. I had plenty of clients then but I wanted to take a more popular approach, showing that I understand there is a recession going on. Since I did that, I have been asked countless time for discounts and extra discounts in a very offending way. I have been stood up counless time as well. Even some people that I knew and trusted stood me up a few times, without any consideration. I still had my good clients and I was able to live comfortably but in a way the frustration got to me and it was harder and harder to give a nice guy a wonderful time after 10 other just annoyed the hell out of me that day.
One single time so far, but I managed to make a regular client not to call to me anymore. You know the type, nice guy, polite, always in time, always taking a shower, happy to have a long foreplay ... He has caught me in a very bad time and I was very suprised to see a rather nasty side of me that I wasn't aware.
At the moment, for me escorting = 90% of the time frustation. I don't want to continue to do a job while I feel like this, it is not fair for all the nice clients out there.
Erotic massages are a tone down from full escorting. No more requirments to act like a girlfrind or an porn video.
It is still intimate but a little less involvment.
Of course, that mens less money for me. Probably considerably less but once I can pay my bills for a while I am not complaining.
When and if I will "cure" myself, I may come back to full time escorting but this is not a guarantee yet, if the massages are productive, I will continue to do them for longer.
P.S. I also have a good business idea in regard to massages. I have applied for a 2 year course in Complementary Health Therapies. While I'm studying (a long way from accounting I may add ), I could register as a masseur and work legally, either as a cover for erotic massages (shame on me ), either as an actual Massage Therapists. I just love paying taxes if that means I don't have to be afraid to open my own door to someone new