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Sinecerly,
Westside.
Even if we all starved. I just dont like them. I agree totally with your comment on regrets. Funny thing ,is that last September i was talking to a guy who was sick next to my old man in the Hospice. I just asked him how he was doing? He asked me what age i was and when i told him he didnt believe me. He said that your a young man and grabbed my arm and said " i wish i was young again, dont waste your life and take anything for granted.
Two weeks later he died. Somehow i havnt forgotten what he said. I thought about what that guy said and thought about it weeks later (after all the guys including my old man died.)
See lad i wasnt happy with the direction my life was going so decided to do something. I realised that the previous two years i had gone off the rails and wasnt willing to stay off them. Thats why im really here .People say that i need help but nothing could be further from the truth. I came on here simply to make myself sick of escorting. I dont have any disrespect towards anyone on here.
Am i crazy, yeah maybe but im different to 99% of the people around in that just living my life isnt good enough for me.Pushing myself ,learning,training ,stepping outside of my comfort zone is what i thrive on. Thats where im heading back to as well. So like Patricia said there is a method to my madness.See lad i dont want to look back in ten years time at a life of punting,drugs,fights. I want to look back with that speicial girl by my side,look back and look at myself in the mirror and say that i didnt tuck my tail and run.
Some would look at this and say "this guy is nuts" An intellegent person would look at it and say "am i in the same boat?". I see the same guys drive around the sts looking for st girls everynight when i walk. I looked at them and said thats a sad way to be.Then i said "hey what the fuck are you talking about ,you dated some of these girls, you did what these guys do. I see them every night and the same shit ,same streets,same lanes.Not for me.
I hope to meet some of the girls i was with in a bar and then maybe go over and buy the a drink and ask them how things are (not ask them how much). I speak to one st girl now and then when i meet her and things are quiet. I always remind her of what she said to me, that she was going to pack it up. I hope someday that she will meet me and say "hey ive packed it up". Another girl i dated from the st and broke up with on nasty terms is gone from the buisiness. Im actually very happy for her. Even though we dont talk anymore (or at least not now) im happy for her.
See lad its the girls are looked upon by society as the bad in this game, not the punters which is very ,very wrong.
So inside all of that ramble you might find a thing called sense. See to get to your later years and look back and call yourself a punter is sad and really a waste of life and time.I dont want to be in that position in ten years time.
Take it easy and hey pm me if you ever want to talk.
westside.
There is a word for you Westie a philosopher in the making or what... Arent we all just kindred spirtis I see life with my eyes open I mean if you think about it every person you see everyday is just a possibiblity to get to know a girl men are just afraid of rejection.. Im probably talking shite but i may aswell get my 2cents worth