i made this stupid shite comment when locked . drinking to kill the pain of watching my dad die from cancer . any post i put up can be discarded because of drink or anger .this is not an escuse but it is the reason. the inability to do anything when a loved one is dying is soul destroying when my dad goes i will feel like an orphan. sorry for any offence caused to anyone from my posts. wont be posting any more because im hurting too much and i dont wanna hurt anyone else.,