I still have not given up on the idea of marrying a former escort, she never asks me do I still visit other providers (I guess she doesnt want to know)
I think at 40 plus and your not married-which is where Im at - I think if she does not marry me- well ill marry someone for companionship and keep seeing providers for the extra thrill and their incredible beauty
to answer your question- the meaning of life- Life is defined by the choices we make- if we make the wrong choices on a 50-50 decision it can have lifelong consequences.
A dangerous weakness of mine- "an attraction for fast women and slow horses"