Originally Posted by
Stephanie
.. oh it's so easy to buy a trinket , buy even a diamond to appease one !
How much of yourself do you give ?
I am like many workaholic Fathers : having no time nor mind or heart to give , I buy a Treat for them , to appease my aching soul .
How I wish I could be there for my ones ! How I wish they could be the center of my universe -- as they are ,
but I have no time nor mind nor enough wherewithal to care sufficiently ... how my heart aches as they look at me ,
longing for nothing more than a meaningful touch and caress .
and we All make our choices in life , and we all prioritize .
And my heart breaks as I am about to let go of one of mine -- temporarily ; nevertheless painful so -- ,
hoping and praying with all my might that she will stick there in good form in good love in good faith ,in good hope ,
and allow me the Focus that this life demands . ..
We ALL make choices every day .
: How do you treat Your loved ones ??
Do you give them of yourself , or you buy them Treats to appease their need of you ??
Buying / getting things SO much easier than to give of one's self !!
But which more valuable ??
How many of you remember a distant father always at work , providing for the family , 'bringin' home the bacon' so to say ,
but yet you were left wanting in desperate need for his attention or even for his aknowledgement of your existance ??
How many of you ??
So .
How do you treat your loved ones ??
{and as an aside / perhaps a fleeting feeble explanation for such a lapse in 'Stephanie's always proper demeanor : I am drunk .
: I have not had a drink since March 13th 2016 when in Kathmandu I had a Vodka . Then three days later on the 16th well in the Mountains
in desperate exhaustion and hypoglycemic shock I asked for a beer of which I drank but a sip .. so , you see , here a drink virgin ,
now I'm about to let go of my 10 year old girl born on my farm under my hand , breaking my heart and so I've had some wine .
I hurt .
I know this is not the Forum for such , but I have no other .
I hope -- if I post this -- , I hope this will sink down down down real quick-like on the current threads lists .
This raw pain , don't know what to do with it .
Troll me if you wish -- I hope you won't .
Ps . ** It's the Four Legged kind of kids x
Girl you're good, anything goes here
Personally I'd say make the gift your presence. A fancy spa break, okay, but be there with them.
As for the four legged kind I always like to think their presence in our lives is but a gift. One quickly expiring and best spent b by not thinking of the end nor past but beautiful present.
Same with two legged folk. Be there when you is there, give them your full attention and time, mind go wandering, pull it back -and if you yourself aren't able to be there - a heartfelt note or voice recording with a well thought out gift ought to do it.
My two cent. Have a coke before bed for the head
<3 u always and L&L to ya
Last edited by Cassandra; 16-05-17 at 02:56.
What if "It's Raining Men" and 'Let the bodies hit the floor' are both about the same event but from different perspectives 🤔