its like addiction, admitting it is the most important step, youve done this so you can loosen those strict guidelines for yourself Id say, you now know the lay of the land it seems so should be able to put the brakes on when needed. no need to be afraid of emotional attachment, just know where the lines are, she wants repeat custom you want a good time, part of the good time is knowing you can take her or leave her whenever, and leaving her place without stressing about when youll see her again (or some time after)