Nice to see an escort with a heart and understanding on this thread.I'm sorry that this has happened to you. Don't do anything silly Hun, this will pass, we all go through testing times in life, this is one of yours. Rather than have this hanging over you and tormenting you perhaps try to get it sorted? You don't know how much she knows or what conclusions she might have reached, so I think don't approach her about it, let her come to you. Stop avoiding her, go and chat about everyday stuff, suss her out, surely she'll have to break and say something? If worst comes to worst and she knows everything then come clean. A friend suggested it to you, it started as a one off, it got a bit out of control . . . It was just easy sex there was never any feelings involved, you were always safe, the guilt was killing you and now you realise the gravity of it all and what you stand to loose you're devastated and so sorry etc etc, don't assume your marriage is over show her that you'll do whatever it takes to save it, counselling whatever. Yours isn't the only marriage to go through something like this and others have gotten through it, you just might do the same.
Fort the guys saying a married punter does not love his wife I do not believe this at all. Most of my clients are married and I have no doubt that they love their wives. Sex is just sex, perhaps they like to indulge in a little kinky uninhibited fun that they would never seek from the mother of their children . . . With an affair there's feelings involved but regardless of the stigma attached to escorts it's just a release. . . Just sex!