Help Am I Addicted

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Evening Folks, now before I start this post I am NOT trying to start any arguments or upset or annoy anybody. I am NOT judging just need some advice from established members and ladies.
Maybe it was a melancholy Monday but I was driving around some areas where I grew up and was listening to shit on radio anyway I met my first love(not my cherry popper) I had not seen her for decades,we went for coffee and spent a lot of time (hours) talking about changes and life.I told her I was seeing escorts(she had heard I have broken up and back and gone again). She was very shocked and the more we talked the more i thought fu** yes me too.
I have only started this in last 3-4 years, and before have had 6 serious relationships but did not last as either one of us or both in some case were married.
I have had in my 20s 30s 40s probably close to 200(YES) one niters are fumbles.This was made easy because of where I lived and where I worked.
Some of these were aspiring models/actresses teachers nurses tellers bar owners and bunnies(not the playboy ones).
I could never imagine paying for sex at that age. Now I am older and in different place so I see no problem with this, if I was to go into bar and try to pull any of ladies on here I would be told to fu** off.
In the last few tears I have met close to 40 people of this site I only do reviews for the very best!!
Now would you think i am addicted,as sometimes the best part is going to meet lady in apartment,my heart is racing and when i get in I virtually lose interest.
I am in good shape and clean and have been told I look 10 years or more younger Sherry was only one who thouht I was older that why I like her so much honesty
Any way I am now in my Autumn nearly Winter years and today I just thought I really am too old for this shit.
I am in long term relationship and she was a young and good model who gave it up to have a family with me.
I have played the cards I was dealt and never left the table and would do it all again without any changes I have a good life and would not swap.
So any advice greatly appreciated. No harm meant to any one on site again I do not mean to judge ANYONE way above my pay grade.
If I have offend any one it was NOT meant and apologies in advance.
Sorry for length of post nearly as bad as Irish Delta ah can he not shorten that user name