Originally Posted by
shydub
cheers guys. the advice seems to be between "get over it and move on" or "keep doing it till you feel better".
I'm an anxiety ridden wreck at the best of times and I don't think I could handle doing this again, surprised I did it once.
Thought I might be able to compartmentalise it and keep separate from my relationship but I couldn't, was hoping it would just feel like an epic weird wank that I wouldn't want anyone to no about but still feel no shame, the shame came as soon as I did.
I'll put it down to experience and next time I feel like visiting a place like that I'll just have an epic weird wank instead.
The replies all helped be feel a bit better, even writing the post felt therepeutic.