Firstime bi male very nervous

[oneoneeight]

My missus just found out about my bisexual preferences & experiences. I want to grow old with that girl, but just can't help myself experimenting with a dude every now and then. I can not imagine being in relationship with a bloke, though, kissing him good night etc .... Ugh. It sends shiver down my back. But a bit of an oral action, well now, that's a totally different story. I could never live without my girlfriend but I also like a bit of cock sucking every now and then.

I think it is absolutely crucial to be 100% honest with yourself ... Can't say you're straight if you like to perform a fellatio or want to ride a mans butt. Also you're not bisexual if your dick doesn't get hard when sees a pussy. As much as we would love it to be, that's just not the way it works.

I know, it's not easy when you realise you might be someone you would hate to be ... It's extremely difficult and heart breaking. You want to fight it in every possible way and use every single thing you can to turn the situation around ... But it doesn't work. You can't fool the nature. If something isn't rushing the blood to your penis, it just isn't. And it won't be, no matter how hard will you try. It's not your conciousness that dictates sexual drive, therefore you can not change it. The only option to get up and perform is a substance, that will help you emulate who you would like to be. For some people it's highly unacceptable, some people like medications, some people smoke certain leaves to get the effect.

Therefore, all you can actually do, is to start loving yourself the way you are, not the way you think other people would like you to be. Otherwise, you will spend your life in a ping-pong match, trying to adjust to everybody else and never being actually trully happy.