I never tried the New Years Resolution bullshit & I don't think it works.
I never wanted to or thought I'd give up smoking either cos I loved smoking.
I was a 20-a-day man, 20 B&H Gold everyday.
I remember chain smoking 52 B&H Gold on a night out and proudly recall that record to all my smoking budz who had to stop and get sick during this epic contest of drunken dickishness.
But....
One day (and it was just one day, literally overnight) I woke up and decided I would try and go without smoking for the day.
And usually the first thing I would do after waking up was spark up before I even put the kettle on.
That was exactly 234 days ago and counting and havent looked back since.
I still don't know why I woke up and decided to do that.
It's hard though, really fucking hard. They say its takes I dunno, something like 14 days to break the cycle of a habit, but I was crawling the walls for the first 2 months and was like a fucking anti-christ.
Nicotine is hard to give up cold turkey. Fact. Your body craves it when you cut it out.
I also went through like a flu type period. I dunno was that withdrawal alone or a combination of withdrawal and my lungs cleansing themselves as I was feverish and fluey for about 2 weeks. And I hacked up the most disgusting, thickest, rancid, black/brown shite Ive ever seen.
I haven't touched a ciggie since but think about them at least 3-4 times an hour, every hour, everyday.
So, em basically yeah, its fucking hell