This post is going to sound sad to alot of people but Im in my 30's have a very poor self image(IM FAT)

I have never had a girlfriend and only had sex once in my life. I am what you may call sexually frustrated

I have looked at the escorts Ireland so many times and I really want to visit one of these girls.

I am not looking for advice on the morality of the whole thing but the reason I havent done it up till now is because im worried that Ill get caught by the cops plus the fact im nervous about having sex itself

Another reason apart from being sexually frustrated why I want to do this is because what if I do meet a girl I like .its going to be a disaster the first time unless I get some practice