... Any sorry for the drunken ramble, I've just re-read my op, my main concern was how I could best prepare myself physically, and I've jabbered on about how Im justifying to myself, how its all cool, this will be a once off type thing! Something I need to do for me, hey It mightn't be all I was expecting, and that will be the end of that.
I'm gonna read this tomo, and kick myself for laying it all out there, my head is muddled right now,...nice to put it down in writing , lol as crazy as I probably sound, im not, just a sensitive guy with no one to talk to about this, what better folk to not judge, then the EI forum community
Some day ill get the bottle to go for it, life's for living
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