I have decided that I am not going to stay here on this site. I may come back sometime later on, if it ever gets peaceful. I am quite sick of the nastiness here, aimed at me and others. I thought I could have a laugh here and find like-minded people to banter with, but I see too many aggressive bullies and women haters.
I'm off. As I am tired of being harassed by cyber bullies.
I am sad to go. But I am just too nice and sensitive a person to deal with harassment. And i am much too busy in my business to deal with the stress that a discussion board brings. I must stay alert to be safe, and I run 5 businesses that consume all my 24 hours a day... I fit time in to come to this site and play nicely with others, but this is not a nice game anymore. So, I'm off. Saw a handicapped man tonight, I had to undress and dress him. Detach his arm and leg rests on the wheelchair, wait for him to inject some life in his cock, and help him transform into feeling young, vibrant, sexy.. like he was once upon a time... He showed me photos of when he was young. Very handsome man. His eyes lit up and he forgot he was old and crippled. He sees a porn star every weekend - he is a millionare - he said I am the most genuine he has ever met. When I arrived, he was aware of his handicap and age. When I left, we were kissing and he had the eyes shine with hope, and truely, I could see beyond his outer shell, and enjoyed that young lad he once was. My heart soared. Yes, This is my purpose in life. A healer. I cannot be distracted. I make people come alive, wake up, feel loved. All this hate aimed at me, distracts me from my higher purpose. I must protect myself and save my energy for those who are worthy of me spending it on. Yes, this place is too complicated. I'm done with all this drama.
I have taken Fiona, Julie, and Ber's advice. I am going under the radar. I have lost heart, and it is a feeling in my chest that I feel and I am so distracted by abuse I get here. To call me ugly, jealous, old, used, a dog fucker, a lap dog, unintelligent..... numerous hateful comments to me, has saddened and distracted me. I have alot of things to focus on, and cannot risk the affects of verbal abuse. It is so shocking to be told these things. I have the highest appearance scores in all of the usa, yet some on here tell me I am ugly?? And I have never been jealous of any women, as I am bisexual... and I hardly think 27 is old as some have called me! I am disgusted by the nastiness here.
Patricia, thankyou for all your hard work. Truely. I respect you. But I must leave this place, as it is not fun or joyful anymore. It is not peaceful or lovely. It is abusive and degrading to women. The boundaries are crossed from a cyber world to the real world. It is dangerous to post here anymore, as users do not know how to separate cyber from real world.
I think it may be best to delete my threads. This one and the poll on hateful men to sexually free women, also all my comments on the cheeky girls. I want to not exist on any abusive board. I fear to see anymore negative mention of my name. I want to just vanish. I want to be forgotten. I dont want to exist.
In the end, everyone here is a ghost. I only know 2 people here, 2 people matter to me and are real. The rest are ghosts.