Escort World - The truth, my opinion and suicide

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Where to start??:

I started escorting because of the money. It seemed like a good idea at the time and an easy way of making money doing something I liked. My first client was nice and the service was fun so I went ahead and done up my rather bad profile that I have never up dated. Making €**** a day working times that suited me tuned out to be very addictive especially since it is so easy. I also have a receptionist to take calls which means I can have clients in 10 mins after the last (enough time to shower etc.) which cuts my working time in half. I do not know how busy escorts are able to work without a receptionist. I would be lost without mine. She is brilliant and keeps me organised because I am a unprofessional escort when it comes to time etc. However as time went on I started to notice my personality changing. I was not as bubbly as I normally was before I started working. I also did not care about people close to me the way I should have. If I did decide to continue escorting I would end up like many of the other escorts on this site. That is cold, heartless, bitter, depressed or on drugs or excessive amounts of alcohol. My whole life would be one big act full of lies. My normal life was also starting to be effected. The escort world was becoming my normal life. If I was foreign and did not have a normal life I could escort no problem.

As for my retirement, I was not retiring for the right reason. I was not retiring for me and I was not ready to retire.

Godfather:

You were correct about certain things you have said and commented on and believe me. I AM THE REAL GEMMA. Does the word "Joker" sound familiar? You now know i is really me. You were a client that I saw too often when I knew you were developing feelings for me. I should have refused to see you sooner then I did. You did not need to hire a PI to follow me to make sure I was safe. I have security for that. My personal life was also none of your business. I did not get involved in your personal life even after you hired someone to follow me and were giving out personal information about me. I do know the name of your huge company and could of easily tracked you down (using the net ironically) but decided not to. I feel sorry for your wife and do hope you can save your marriage.

Regular Clients:

Sorry I have not been answering your calls or texts for the past few weeks. I have been very busy lately. I do recommend and have already recommended to some of you become a regular of Irish Fiona because all of you liked me for my personality. Fiona is just as bubbly and friendly as me.

Clients:

No matter how much you tell yourself that what you are doing is ok and not cheating it is. Would you like your wife/partner/girlfriend going to see a male escort? I do not think so. Also for the clients that ask escorts to go on dates with them, escort and client relationships do not work and this is not only my opinion. New clients and first timers DO NOT START SEEING ESCORTS it is very addictive and it is just like an expensive wank no matter what escort you are with.

Escorts:

Thank you to all of the escorts that I was friends with. I really appreciate your friendships and advice. Thank you also to all the jealous, bitter, sly, two faced snakes. When I look at you I think I never want to end up like them. I am sorry to all the escorts I am friends with but I will be cutting full communication with the escort world.
Stay safe and trust no one, not even other escorts. Everyone is only out or themselves which I am sure you have all relised. Some are just more bitchy and bitter then others.

Regular people on this site:

Honestly you all need tot urn of your computers and get a life. I admit I used to spend a lot of time on this site and no that I do not be on as much I relise that there are better things to be doing then sitting on a computer. When I think of EI I think of middle aged men sitting on their computer with one eye on the computer and the other on the tv watching and waiting for something new to be said. Spend time with your family, go on a walk or get a hobby and not spend life seeing what is being said on this site.

Control:

This is for everyone that knows me and have talked to me. The guys I am talking about will know what I mean when I say "you were all right and I was wrong". Thank you for you honest opinions you all gave me even though I did not thank you all at the time.

Final Word:

To all new escorts NEVER start escorting unless you know 100% what you are getting yourself involved in. You are getting involved in a world full of drink, drugs and multiple sex partners that you will not always be attracted to. It is impossible to have a normal relationship no mater how hard you try to seperate the two worlds and you will also find your normal life suffering greatly. All of this takes a toll on your mental and physical health. Your health is more important then a couple of thousand a week.

I do still like escorting but I have seen a total different side to it which would get to me if I was working as an escort full time. I regret everything I have done and said since I started escorting. The money was not worth it and becoming slightly harder and hurting people that cared about me was not worth it. I am only getting the amount of clients I do get because I provide the service they want and because I am Irish. I am good at escorting because I only work when I was in the mood.

I am genuinely sorry to everyone I have hurt, lied to, deceived and betrayed. I have honestly learned my lesson and if I could turn back time I would.

I know people reading this will think I have lost the plot but I have not. When my profile goes down after my signature tour dates I will be gone. I know everyone is probably saying here we go again but this time I am ready to retire and doing it for the correct reason's. I do also know that this post will be my career suicide. It is the truth however and I finally have the balls to say it instead of sugar coating everything.

I do not care about what anyone in the escort world thinks of me or what anyone has to say about me. I am who I am hate it or love it I do not care.

NEW YEAR, NEW START, NEW LIFE.

I WILL NOT BE POSTING AGAIN UNLESS REQUIRED.

Gemma