Escort World - The truth, my opinion and suicide

Where to start??:

I started escorting because of the money. It seemed like a good idea at the time and an easy way of making money doing something I liked. My first client was nice and the service was fun so I went ahead and done up my rather bad profile that I have never up dated. Making €**** a day working times that suited me tuned out to be very addictive especially since it is so easy. I also have a receptionist to take calls which means I can have clients in 10 mins after the last (enough time to shower etc.) which cuts my working time in half. I do not know how busy escorts are able to work without a receptionist. I would be lost without mine. She is brilliant and keeps me organised because I am a unprofessional escort when it comes to time etc. However as time went on I started to notice my personality changing. I was not as bubbly as I normally was before I started working. I also did not care about people close to me the way I should have. If I did decide to continue escorting I would end up like many of the other escorts on this site. That is cold, heartless, bitter, depressed or on drugs or excessive amounts of alcohol. My whole life would be one big act full of lies. My normal life was also starting to be effected. The escort world was becoming my normal life. If I was foreign and did not have a normal life I could escort no problem.

As for my retirement, I was not retiring for the right reason. I was not retiring for me and I was not ready to retire.

Godfather:

You were correct about certain things you have said and commented on and believe me. I AM THE REAL GEMMA. Does the word "Joker" sound familiar? You now know i is really me. You were a client that I saw too often when I knew you were developing feelings for me. I should have refused to see you sooner then I did. You did not need to hire a PI to follow me to make sure I was safe. I have security for that. My personal life was also none of your business. I did not get involved in your personal life even after you hired someone to follow me and were giving out personal information about me. I do know the name of your huge company and could of easily tracked you down (using the net ironically) but decided not to. I feel sorry for your wife and do hope you can save your marriage.

Regular Clients:

Sorry I have not been answering your calls or texts for the past few weeks. I have been very busy lately. I do recommend and have already recommended to some of you become a regular of Irish Fiona because all of you liked me for my personality. Fiona is just as bubbly and friendly as me.

Clients:

No matter how much you tell yourself that what you are doing is ok and not cheating it is. Would you like your wife/partner/girlfriend going to see a male escort? I do not think so. Also for the clients that ask escorts to go on dates with them, escort and client relationships do not work and this is not only my opinion. New clients and first timers DO NOT START SEEING ESCORTS it is very addictive and it is just like an expensive wank no matter what escort you are with.

Escorts:

Thank you to all of the escorts that I was friends with. I really appreciate your friendships and advice. Thank you also to all the jealous, bitter, sly, two faced snakes. When I look at you I think I never want to end up like them. I am sorry to all the escorts I am friends with but I will be cutting full communication with the escort world.
Stay safe and trust no one, not even other escorts. Everyone is only out or themselves which I am sure you have all relised. Some are just more bitchy and bitter then others.

Regular people on this site:

Honestly you all need tot urn of your computers and get a life. I admit I used to spend a lot of time on this site and no that I do not be on as much I relise that there are better things to be doing then sitting on a computer. When I think of EI I think of middle aged men sitting on their computer with one eye on the computer and the other on the tv watching and waiting for something new to be said. Spend time with your family, go on a walk or get a hobby and not spend life seeing what is being said on this site.

Control:

This is for everyone that knows me and have talked to me. The guys I am talking about will know what I mean when I say "you were all right and I was wrong". Thank you for you honest opinions you all gave me even though I did not thank you all at the time.

Final Word:

To all new escorts NEVER start escorting unless you know 100% what you are getting yourself involved in. You are getting involved in a world full of drink, drugs and multiple sex partners that you will not always be attracted to. It is impossible to have a normal relationship no mater how hard you try to seperate the two worlds and you will also find your normal life suffering greatly. All of this takes a toll on your mental and physical health. Your health is more important then a couple of thousand a week.

I do still like escorting but I have seen a total different side to it which would get to me if I was working as an escort full time. I regret everything I have done and said since I started escorting. The money was not worth it and becoming slightly harder and hurting people that cared about me was not worth it. I am only getting the amount of clients I do get because I provide the service they want and because I am Irish. I am good at escorting because I only work when I was in the mood.

I am genuinely sorry to everyone I have hurt, lied to, deceived and betrayed. I have honestly learned my lesson and if I could turn back time I would.

I know people reading this will think I have lost the plot but I have not. When my profile goes down after my signature tour dates I will be gone. I know everyone is probably saying here we go again but this time I am ready to retire and doing it for the correct reason's. I do also know that this post will be my career suicide. It is the truth however and I finally have the balls to say it instead of sugar coating everything.

I do not care about what anyone in the escort world thinks of me or what anyone has to say about me. I am who I am hate it or love it I do not care.

NEW YEAR, NEW START, NEW LIFE.

I WILL NOT BE POSTING AGAIN UNLESS REQUIRED.

Gemma

The shit that one gets into when they lie and say they're retiring makes you wonder why they told the lie in the first place, it's not as if they never heard of the word 'credibility' or is that a word young Celtic CUbs didn't have to formalize themselves with:confused::confused::p:p

Remember,long after the credit cards , cash and loans are gone, a persons word is everything, always as been, all ways will be:cool:

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Originally Posted by anitasizzle

The shit that one gets into when they lie and say they're retiring makes you wonder why they told the lie in the first place, it's not as if they never heard of the word 'credibility' or is that a word young Celtic CUbs didn't have to formalize themselves with:confused::confused::p:p

Remember,long after the credit cards , cash and loans are gone, a persons word is everything, always as been, all ways will be:cool:

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Anita,

I did retire my profile was down for ages and got rid of my number. Hence the new number. I then realized I was not ready to retire and was doing it for the wrong reasons. I am now ready and know exactly what I want. Also my above post is the end of my career.

Best of luck,

Gemma

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Originally Posted by sexybabehere

Anita,

I did retire my profile was down for ages and got rid of my number. Hence the new number. I then realized I was not ready to retire and was doing it for the wrong reasons. I am now ready and know exactly what I want. Also my above post is the end of my career.

Best of luck,

Gemma

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Because your last 'retirement advert' was for November the 31st, but I remember seeing your ads for Galwasy and Portlaoise throughout the month of December and the better part of the New Year.

The only reason why I'm saying something is that I HATE to see young Irish girls lie-i've never encountered people who lie as much as young Irish girls, STOP IT's suck:(

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Originally Posted by anitasizzle

Because your last 'retirement advert' was for November the 31st, but I remember seeing your ads for Galwasy and Portlaoise throughout the month of December and the better part of the New Year.

The only reason why I'm saying something is that I HATE to see young Irish girls lie-i've never encountered people who lie as much as young Irish girls, STOP IT's suck:(

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LOL no I am not hitting the drugs or bottle. Everything in my post is true. If I continued being an escort and doing it full time I would end up hitting the bottle or drugs like so many others. Clients talk to me because I am Irish and tell me what the story is with other girls and clients know when escorts are out of it or pissed.

I was gone for 2 weeks den wen2 g/way and then portlaois. During them 2 weeks iI decided to come back. Now I can honestly say I am nearly done and done for good. Before I still had doubt now I have no doubt at all. The escort world is full of lies and deceit. My whole life was one big lie. Leading a double life was not all its made out 2 be. It's just one big lie when your an escort. Maybe you are not meeting the right Irish girls.

Gemma

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Originally Posted by sexybabehere

LOL no I am not hitting the drugs or bottle. Everything in my post is true. If I continued being an escort and doing it full time I would end up hitting the bottle or drugs like so many others. Clients talk to me because I am Irish and tell me what the story is with other girls and clients know when escorts are out of it or pissed.

I was gone for 2 weeks den wen2 g/way and then portlaois. During them 2 weeks iI decided to come back. Now I can honestly say I am nearly done and done for good. Before I still had doubt now I have no doubt at all. The escort world is full of lies and deceit. My whole life was one big lie. Leading a double life was not all its made out 2 be. It's just one big lie when your an escort. Maybe you are not meeting the right Irish girls.

Gemma

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Two weeks is considered 'ages':confused:
I've lived in Ireland for nearly 13 years and I'd have to say 80% of Irish girls are LIARS so much so I was starting to believe they receive Tax Incentives for all the lying they indulge in:p:p:p

Good luck

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Originally Posted by anitasizzle

Two weeks is considered 'ages':confused:
I've lived in Ireland for nearly 13 years and I'd have say 80% of Irish girls are LIARS so much so I was starting to believe they receive Tax Incentives for all the lying they indulge in:p:p:p

Good luck

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Two weeks is ages when your doing nothing but thinking. LOL I like the the Tax Incentives part :) I know what I lied about and I know now it was wrong. I regret it and will never be doing it again. I learned my lesson the hard way.

Gemma

Also I 4got to add, If any1 wants to call me the ever retiring bj queen or whatever I do not mind. I am used to it now but as I said circumstances are different and I know what I want now.

Gemma

I think its nice you poured out your heart here. Sadly, alot of abuse is found on these discussion boards. I tell you what.... I love being an escort, and have no stress with it. Sure, you always have to "be on your toes" in regards to looking for the raised flags of possible trouble, but my stress level never has risen cause of escorting..... The only stress in my life is caused from these discussion boards. I never encountered so many mean, jealous, slanderous cyber bullies. And Im not picking on E-I, I'm talking about all escort websites. I dont know why there are so many bullies and stalkers and harrassers on the escort websites, but I would encourage all escorts (which many are already aware) to stay off of escort discussion boards. Yes, it is always a struggle for me, as I often use discussion boards to do creative writing and get my thoughts out and analyze things... but a few of you know (my friends) that I am determined to stop posting and be more under the radar.

Im sorry gemma that the real escorting world stressed you out. But in my experience, its not escorting that stresses and discourages and changes a person, but rather the discussion boards and harrassers online that we encounter.

I wish you well, whatever you do next. And if you decide to escort again, I wish you well with that too.

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Originally Posted by sexybabehere

Where to start??:

I started escorting because of the money. It seemed like a good idea at the time and an easy way of making money doing something I liked. My first client was nice and the service was fun so I went ahead and done up my rather bad profile that I have never up dated. Making €**** a day working times that suited me tuned out to be very addictive especially since it is so easy. I also have a receptionist to take calls which means I can have clients in 10 mins after the last (enough time to shower etc.) which cuts my working time in half. I do not know how busy escorts are able to work without a receptionist. I would be lost without mine. She is brilliant and keeps me organised because I am a unprofessional escort when it comes to time etc. However as time went on I started to notice my personality changing. I was not as bubbly as I normally was before I started working. I also did not care about people close to me the way I should have. If I did decide to continue escorting I would end up like many of the other escorts on this site. That is cold, heartless, bitter, depressed or on drugs or excessive amounts of alcohol. My whole life would be one big act full of lies. My normal life was also starting to be effected. The escort world was becoming my normal life. If I was foreign and did not have a normal life I could escort no problem.

As for my retirement, I was not retiring for the right reason. I was not retiring for me and I was not ready to retire.

Godfather:

You were correct about certain things you have said and commented on and believe me. I AM THE REAL GEMMA. Does the word "Joker" sound familiar? You now know i is really me. You were a client that I saw too often when I knew you were developing feelings for me. I should have refused to see you sooner then I did. You did not need to hire a PI to follow me to make sure I was safe. I have security for that. My personal life was also none of your business. I did not get involved in your personal life even after you hired someone to follow me and were giving out personal information about me. I do know the name of your huge company and could of easily tracked you down (using the net ironically) but decided not to. I feel sorry for your wife and do hope you can save your marriage.

Regular Clients:

Sorry I have not been answering your calls or texts for the past few weeks. I have been very busy lately. I do recommend and have already recommended to some of you become a regular of Irish Fiona because all of you liked me for my personality. Fiona is just as bubbly and friendly as me.

Clients:

No matter how much you tell yourself that what you are doing is ok and not cheating it is. Would you like your wife/partner/girlfriend going to see a male escort? I do not think so. Also for the clients that ask escorts to go on dates with them, escort and client relationships do not work and this is not only my opinion. New clients and first timers DO NOT START SEEING ESCORTS it is very addictive and it is just like an expensive wank no matter what escort you are with.

Escorts:

Thank you to all of the escorts that I was friends with. I really appreciate your friendships and advice. Thank you also to all the jealous, bitter, sly, two faced snakes. When I look at you I think I never want to end up like them. I am sorry to all the escorts I am friends with but I will be cutting full communication with the escort world.
Stay safe and trust no one, not even other escorts. Everyone is only out or themselves which I am sure you have all relised. Some are just more bitchy and bitter then others.

Regular people on this site:

Honestly you all need tot urn of your computers and get a life. I admit I used to spend a lot of time on this site and no that I do not be on as much I relise that there are better things to be doing then sitting on a computer. When I think of EI I think of middle aged men sitting on their computer with one eye on the computer and the other on the tv watching and waiting for something new to be said. Spend time with your family, go on a walk or get a hobby and not spend life seeing what is being said on this site.

Control:

This is for everyone that knows me and have talked to me. The guys I am talking about will know what I mean when I say "you were all right and I was wrong". Thank you for you honest opinions you all gave me even though I did not thank you all at the time.

Final Word:

To all new escorts NEVER start escorting unless you know 100% what you are getting yourself involved in. You are getting involved in a world full of drink, drugs and multiple sex partners that you will not always be attracted to. It is impossible to have a normal relationship no mater how hard you try to seperate the two worlds and you will also find your normal life suffering greatly. All of this takes a toll on your mental and physical health. Your health is more important then a couple of thousand a week.

I do still like escorting but I have seen a total different side to it which would get to me if I was working as an escort full time. I regret everything I have done and said since I started escorting. The money was not worth it and becoming slightly harder and hurting people that cared about me was not worth it. I am only getting the amount of clients I do get because I provide the service they want and because I am Irish. I am good at escorting because I only work when I was in the mood.

I am genuinely sorry to everyone I have hurt, lied to, deceived and betrayed. I have honestly learned my lesson and if I could turn back time I would.

I know people reading this will think I have lost the plot but I have not. When my profile goes down after my signature tour dates I will be gone. I know everyone is probably saying here we go again but this time I am ready to retire and doing it for the correct reason's. I do also know that this post will be my career suicide. It is the truth however and I finally have the balls to say it instead of sugar coating everything.

I do not care about what anyone in the escort world thinks of me or what anyone has to say about me. I am who I am hate it or love it I do not care.

NEW YEAR, NEW START, NEW LIFE.

I WILL NOT BE POSTING AGAIN UNLESS REQUIRED.

Gemma

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Gemma I have read your post and I can see that it is well wrote and comes from the real you. We have had some issues in the past but this certainly shows me the honest and good side to you. I knew I was right about certain things I said but I was incorrect in telling you that you had no respect for yourself in the chat room previously. This post shows that you have nothing but respect for yourself. I am happy you have the courage to speak honestly and openly with the fact that the post will end your career for ever. Unfortunatly you have regrets but do not regret everything. You used to tell me everything happens for a reason and I agree it does. You are now leaving the escort world smarter and stronger. Why now and not any other time if you do not mind me asking?

GF