Do I need help?

Below is a reply I put on Lucy's addiction thread. I sort of tapped it out and posted it with thinking too much of it.
I'm not having an emotional crisis about it or anything but having read it again I wondered if I am normal??:(

I can stand up and proudly say that I have never cheated on a partner in my life, either with an escort or anyone else.

But having said that -
Although I do enjoy and appreciate the emotional and companionship element of a relationship and have never cheated on anyone I am just not a monogamous personality.

I have actually been giving this some thought following my most recent scrape with another phsycotic girlfriend. I have come to the conclusion that having seen the promised land that is the world of choice that visiting escorts offers I'm not sure I would be able to function in a monagomuous relationship again.

I dont think I am addicted more that I have found a lifestyle that suits my outlook if you see what I mean?

I'm still not decided if my choice of a series of phsychotic girlfriends has damaged my outlook on relationships or if my 8 years of punting (when not in a relationship) has actually done the damage?
Maybe seeing escorts between relationships has derailed any chance those relationships have of succeeding?
Or maybe I'm just normal but a little different?

I know this is a bit of a ramble but thats where my mind is at the mo.

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Originally Posted by willyup

Below is a reply I put on Lucy's addiction thread. I sort of tapped it out and posted it with thinking too much of it.
I'm not having an emotional crisis about it or anything but having read it again I wondered if I am normal??:(

I can stand up and proudly say that I have never cheated on a partner in my life, either with an escort or anyone else.

But having said that -
Although I do enjoy and appreciate the emotional and companionship element of a relationship and have never cheated on anyone I am just not a monogamous personality.

I have actually been giving this some thought following my most recent scrape with another phsycotic girlfriend. I have come to the conclusion that having seen the promised land that is the world of choice that visiting escorts offers I'm not sure I would be able to function in a monagomuous relationship again.

I dont think I am addicted more that I have found a lifestyle that suits my outlook if you see what I mean?

I'm still not decided if my choice of a series of phsychotic girlfriends has damaged my outlook on relationships or if my 8 years of punting (when not in a relationship) has actually done the damage?
Maybe seeing escorts between relationships has derailed any chance those relationships have of succeeding?
Or maybe I'm just normal but a little different?

I know this is a bit of a ramble but thats where my mind is at the mo.

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You sound totally sane to me bud....

Quote:

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Originally Posted by willyup

Below is a reply I put on Lucy's addiction thread. I sort of tapped it out and posted it with thinking too much of it.
I'm not having an emotional crisis about it or anything but having read it again I wondered if I am normal??:(

I can stand up and proudly say that I have never cheated on a partner in my life, either with an escort or anyone else.

But having said that -
Although I do enjoy and appreciate the emotional and companionship element of a relationship and have never cheated on anyone I am just not a monogamous personality.

I have actually been giving this some thought following my most recent scrape with another phsycotic girlfriend. I have come to the conclusion that having seen the promised land that is the world of choice that visiting escorts offers I'm not sure I would be able to function in a monagomuous relationship again.

I dont think I am addicted more that I have found a lifestyle that suits my outlook if you see what I mean?

I'm still not decided if my choice of a series of phsychotic girlfriends has damaged my outlook on relationships or if my 8 years of punting (when not in a relationship) has actually done the damage?
Maybe seeing escorts between relationships has derailed any chance those relationships have of succeeding?
Or maybe I'm just normal but a little different?

I know this is a bit of a ramble but thats where my mind is at the mo.

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A lot of people rowing the same boat willyup .: doc

You sound perfectly sane darling. All I would say is don't give up on a "normal" relationship. Seeing escorts is generally straight forward and lots of fun. However there is nothing like a monogamous relationship with someone you care for. Even if it is not perfect x