I thank you for your honesty, frankness, tact and level headed assessment of your situation. It truly is not a cliche that the first step back up the ladder is being honest with yourself first, if now-one else, and admitting something is out of kilter, I know from seeing it that every step after that is easier then the last, (the first is a b**tard, that some never take), but not to try and take two steps at a time, thinking its easy and you've beaten it, as that’s when people falter
Its sadly the case that people who fall victim to internal demons have to, (without exception) go to the absolute brink of destruction, regardless of the impact on those around them before hopefully seeing the error of their ways, that’s the nature of the beast, there’s no avoiding it. It will not warn you, you will not heed others, even your own Child begging you, and at the end of the day the person with the addiction, and only them can do anything about it, as they have to want it for themselves and not just want it because others do. It sounds selfish to say that they have to want it for themselves, but that’s the reality of the situation in any addiction. I learnt that particular lesson the hard way.
You made a valuable contribution here on the very real negatives involved for some Clients, as I’m sure there are also for some Escorts as well.
I also agree totally of the unnaturalness of enforced celibacy in the Priesthood, its why the schisms we see from their ranks are all to sickenilly common.
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I truly hope everything works out, its not my place to say it, but I also know that people who had long since cut a person adrift, sometimes allow the current of their efforts to make things right, bring them back together, and the swiftness of the tides that tore them apart, paradoxically makes them watertight to any future deluge.
I don’t doubt you have things well under control.
Best Regards...QPH...