Originally Posted by
TonyStark
In a way part of what you say makes sense but I don't see it as the easy option, just need a release that isn't self inflicted.
I'm not sure if it's a confidence issue or just can't be arsed with girls in the "real world" as like you I have experienced girls that are complete bitches and have noticed that most of the girls I'm attracted to tend to go with guys that treat them like shite.
Sometimes I think I need a girl to hit me over the head with a hammer to show that she's interested as I just don't see the signs, example being a girl at the gym who's smiled a few times and I've caught her looking few times too but I'm fucked if she's just being friendly or geniunely interested.
Also part of me, esp after a meeting, thinks I have this really guilty look like people know what I've been up to even though I'm single and can have sex with whomever I want, obviously consensual.
So yeah, just a release although there are some escorts I've met that I genuinely wish I had met under different circumstances but I guess that's the nature of this hobby and we have to always remember what it is we are doing.