Anticipation

[beautyaddict]

Part of why I don't do this anymore (although a small part) is anticipation. When I know something is on, or like in your case waiting for an answer, I literally stop functioning as a normal human being, and anxiety kills me for hours until the thing is done and dusted.

It's one of the worst experiences that I can go through, for me to get to the best experiences I can go through. When I balance them, most of them time me not living through anticipation wins.

That is a shame , I accept the negatives to find the diamonds as those events and memories easily make it a wonder across the whole life I live