Hey CD , Just reading your post and some of the replies . My tuppence hapenny for whats its worth is to dwell on the positives in your life rather than the negatives . Women, whether they are Escorts or not are not the solution . Ok Escorts are always only a phonecall away and are a buzz for that hour or whatever but its not a healthy way to find people to interact with .The day visiting Escorts stops been fun its time to walk away .
I would suggest as others have already mentioned , firstly go to a GP and give up drinking but also get involved with local community organisations . There are a lot of good people doing this and its a great way of getting out n about and giving something back to your neighbours ,local kids and the elderly . It will open up a whole new scene and is a great self esteem builder.
Whatever you decide to do i wish you well and remember that there are graveyards all over the country full of people who would love to be like you , alive and kicking .
Slim
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